I didn't get the job in the records center. It went to Richard my former boss though it has not been made public yet. I still have the two retirement community jobs out and the possibility of red stone or uah. I asked an old black minister to pray for me. Maybe that will help. After I stood up for myself and we talked, she presented a plan to me about how we are going to proceed and I think it is a good plan. Which I told her. I would like to take it and implement it somewhere else! If I am forced to stay there I think I live with my new action plan.
Tutoring is going amazingly well! I think I am really making a difference in the persons life and we have been having really deep prolonged conversations. Tonight I worked with him for three hours and made about what I would make in a while day's work.
I can't believe my eyes
These tears are from happy cries
The woman I finally met Dangerous
curves in her silhouette
A love that defies
I feel the love when we reach out and touch
Heart caves in because I love her so much
She has me drenched beneath a spell
It will last forever as far as I can tell
No dirt could ever hurt or defile
No other person could instigate this smile
I hold her as if she'll vanish
letting go In case I lose the chance to see her face
I always let her know
She's precious and forever dear to my heart
I never want her to think less
no matter how minute we part
Be it a week long business trip
Or a quick run to the store
Each time I see her again warrants more
Reminders of my heart
How it's forever hers to hold
Wraps her in warmth if she's ever in the cold
My darling sweet love, precious angel upon earth
I pray and thank God everyday for your birth.
Then in the evening brandy came and took us out to eat at my favorite resteraunt. We took a pic with Greyden.
I wrote this back in 2014.
"Only you can decide what makes you sink or swim. This is all part of things we learn in life. You can't give other people the power to haunt you forever. Even if we have no self esteem god loves us and we take self worth from that. If I had to speak after becoming this upset I would have sucked it up and put my lipstick on and delivered that speech. It doesn't matter how fat I am, how thin I am, how alone I am, how rich or poor, god loves me and I will keep doing the best I can."
So at work today I had another meeting, now remember the last meeting I had they asked me if I was suicidal and was this going to affect my job performance. Mother fuckers called me in today and said, "We know you have a unique situation, but you're backsliding in your progress..." FUCK YOU BITCH!!!!!!!!!!! The love of my life just killed himself!!!!!!!! It took everything in me to hold back vomit, so instead I sat there and quietly thought about getting another job ASAP. HMCPL does not deserve my talent and unique abilities.
It has been a full day. Rys dad is in the hospital so i went with natalie and hung out before work.
I had the boy scouts in tge archives for a collections and hobbies badge.
Ive had a lot of communication with ryans brothers and family today. I gave one if his top hats to brabdon and his wife sayd he wears it when he plays video games.
Blake and william sent me fun goofy pics whilethey cleaned the house. I went and got my face waxed and i feel like i have a whole newface like my old one was ripped off by vietnese women who love inflicting pain for beauty and unwanted facial hair.
I made my first public appearance tonight at a facutly party for UAH history dept and there were lots of young couples there. I got upset and went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror and asked God to let Ry Ry be with me tonight and the lights blinked immediately!It was so weird. Natalie went with me and we enjoyed the party. Dr. Waring invited me and I got ot meet the new head of archvies for UAH.
Dancing to Solomon Burke
a perfect morning