This totally freaked my shit out tonight and by monday I will probably friends only this.

I met this girl at a party who was going to Calhoun and I told her "girl you have to take my class" and went on and on how I was assembling a totally hot class in the spring and gave her all the info to get it. Oh the things I said...talkign so freely and open.

Before that we had hit it off becuase we were reading the Vampire Diaries (I know I know, not great literature but they are really fun its like a guilty pleasure)

So she says would you remember me and I said Oh sure ofcourse.

After she left the other girls told me she had taken my class and failed it. You pretty much have to quit coming to recive an F from me. You have to not take the final--the first F I gave to someone who took all the tests and completed the class just happened this past semester so she must not have taken the final. I had no idea I had taught her. ITs really totally freakish.

I stand by my methods and know that I ALWAYS act with humility and decorum in the classroom so I have nothing to be ebarrassed over but damn it was weird to be talking to a former student and not know it.

I had such an exciting day. We debuted a beautiful manuscript by a local turn of the century artist (Howard Weedon), and had a reception to recoginize the donor who is this big time Nashville lawyer.

I worked like a dog on this recieption and I think it turned out real nice and the table was as pretty and fine as any spread in Huntsville. Now my mamma taught me good how to set a fine table.

I was invited along with my boss to dinner at 801 Franklin, thats the real nice place to eat in town. I enjoyed myself
immensely and felt like my whit, intelligence, and beauty was appriciated. I dont really feel liek that often but there was just just the perfect amount of sexual humor to make the evening interesting and invigorating.

At the end the leader of our little party picked up the check (as it turned out he owned stock in the resteraunt). Lord there is no telling how much it was since they bought two bottle of fine wine and it was understood that he was getting the check but I leaned over quietly and said, "how much do I owe you?" I dont know why, I guess it was becuase dad would always pick up the check when a group was together and he appriciated people offering. I think it surprised Cutter and gave him the chance of saying how much he enjoyed my presence at dinner. He is such a fine man. I am glad that he is on our library board.

Lets see there was something else I wanted to record. Oh yes, using Lindseys phrasing "creepy" I said to our little group, Would you liek to hear about the creepy thing I did at the Leonard Cohen concert and they loved it.

This sounds not so good becuas eI havent been practising lately. But today was a holiday so mamma got her squeeze box out and danced herself to the end of love.

I have also been listening to my L. Cohen music non stop since the concert. Its made me crazy this week, crazy in a good freaking mood. I even threw a pack of ciggs to a homeless dude who crawled up from under governors drive bridge. I mean I bullzied it and it bounced of the middle of his chest.

The next day I was still feeling totally humane so I decided to give this other homeless dude who I know well through Mike a ride to AA becuase it was raining. He is a Navy vet so I did a good deed and recognized the vets in my classes. Thank god my classes were all sweet this week. I would have hate to of had to be a ball buster while I was feeling so good.

went to a managers meeting as a sit in for my boss. Methinks managers meetings are a soul sucking waste of time, but at the same time I found myself almost dominating it.Our department has so much cool stuff going on. It was pretty weird.

This morning I dug out Dad's flag that he always put out on patrotic holidays. It really felt nice doing that on the holiday instead of being at work. I even swam this morning and there were no creeps in the pool.





This one I accidently uploaded so thought I would go ahead and post it

so all weekend me and mike have been moving around rotten out and burned railroad ties. Its was fun but damn I am sore all over. When I do things like that I like to wear my steel toed tennies and my leather hat. I had the song The Gypsy wife stuck in my head and Mike started calling me his gypsy wife. I kind of like that. Even though he wrote it about his break up with his wife I love the song and I like feeling like someones gypsy. I even wore a swishy skirt when we went to fresh market. While we were standing in line Mike started dancing around me unloading the basket. An old woman came up to us and said something about Waking up in the morning and decided to be joyous, that happy and joyous were two different things.

As were walking tot he car I said something about it being odd that she would say something, I mean he was practically doing pirouettes around me. Mike said that people will tell you what they need to hear and e decided she just needed to reasure herself.

Here is a pic of me and my hat. Isnt it cute. I havent worn it in a long time. Also this is a pic of my concert t. I thinkI am going to wear it to school tomorrow. hhaaa but I wont show G becuase he would never let me live it down.





Brandy located this

today was kind of a trying day. It swooped in on me while I was still in a transcendental state of being from the Cohen concert. Everything was difficult today. The easiest and best part of the day was bringing rotten railroad ties from a neighbors yard to ours to line our nature trails. That was right up my ally today. It got eaten by trying to help mother pick out an oil painting. The whole experience of trying to keep hubby and mumsey happy stressed me out.

So now I steal some time for myself because I dont really feel like talking. For some reason I feel dont feel like talking or sharing and sometimes thats when you need to share the most. Actually, just becuas eI dont feel like talking doesnt mean that I cant murder the english language and hack out a bunch of fucked up disconted sentence that are in essence random thoughts. Did I mention the concert was just Cohen and his band and it was 3 hours long and he had 30 min of encores, pretty much emtied out my savings to see him but it was worth it.

--Thought 1--Brandy has written up an awesome short recap of Leonard's concert and has searched through heaps of concert footage to post about 4 or 5 of our favorite songs from the 2009 tour that were our favorites. It has been made a public post I think and can be found here http://karmabuena.livejournal.com/446956.html

I may repost the ones she found at different intervals this week as I listen t them. Its just hard to belive that we were in the same room with that voice and the heart that brought those songs. A thousand kisses deep is tagged in on the back of this clip.



I dont know there are so many awesome things to choose from, but the ones like this one the B found are really highlights. The band he assembeld was fucking unbelivable. and those bitches can sing and that guy on the sax and wind instruments, all I can say is that his mouth can do awesome oral things as he is king of reeds & winds.

Cohen was awesome and sounds just like he does on recordings. His peom A Thousand Kisses deep really awsome!!! I loved singing our fav Cohen songs all the way. It made me think about that one perfect moment in summer when we were driving down river road listenogn to Bird on a wire, Marianne, Suzanne and Chelsea Hotel, Waiting for the miracle, and I'm your man.

--Thought 2--Impressions of the concert...I was struck at how Leonard would kneel on his knees to sing and his graciousness at taking his hat off when he gave the spotlight up for solos of the back band. He was a little man and skin and bones.

--thought 3--I wish I could have given a copy of my little book to Leonard so I asked around till I met the guy in charge of merchandise (after purchasing to 'Songs of Love and Hate' t-shirts ) and asked him of he could see Leonard got it. Figured whyt he hell not. It is probably beyond goofy and almost to goofy to admit to but I needed to send a copy out in the world to land where it may.

--THought 4--tomorrow I hope to spend a whole unfettered day with Mike

--Thought 5--I drank tonight, dont want to all those calories in my body but I just needed a good nights sleep and I wanted my eyes to get tired and dizzy. well I just fell asleep at tmy computer, prob should go to bed,

The past couple days have been busy but good. Tomorrow we go see Leonard!!! yeah! and we decided to go balls to the wall and stay in Nashville for the night at the downtown Sheraton! yep, total uptown girls, its going to be an awesome "girlcation" as Brandy says.

Today in my class I turned my notes over and a sheet was missing. I said out loud, a page of my notes are missing. But I just used the handout and made sure I covered everything and went on. It was fine, but disconcerting. I like my neat tidy outlines.

Last night someone at furniture class was sneazing and coughing. I probably should have stayed home with my sweety.

My Mike story for the day is a good one. I wish I could have recorded this becuase it was funny. But I found something on some turkey hot dogs and Mike came in and turned on the skull lights that play the Halloween theme song and I ran over and was chacinghim around witht he gross hotdogs and he was screaming approprately to the music. IT was pretty funny.

we have also been watching the urban free run championships in London. Its when they run up walls and flip and and jump pillars. It was really cool. The new joke is we do everything in urban freestyle and pretend to be doing flips and shit. so now we dont just vacuum urban free style! its pretty fun.

I have really been enjoying the Vampire Diaries the books. It took me like 7 chapters to get into it. But now its really good. you know, I really like Damon, the villian brother, in the is book. he is so terrible but deliciously so...I was telling Mike about it because we have been watching the show that on the show I didnt really like his character at first but now I think Elana should explore those other posibilities. Sookie would =)

but Sookie is older than Elana. I was discussing all this with Mike and I said, I cant belive I said elana should throw over Stefan for Damon, and Mike said, "Its no surprise to me, you like the bad boys"

I said What!

went to a great talk tonight at UAH. It was about women in the civil war.

I was waiting to talk to the woman afterwards and in the mean time I found the only other person in the room to talk to who wasnt paired up talking with someone and introduced myself and struck up a nice conversaton with her. She asked me if I was going to get my PhD and I told her about being a reject and so on...Turns out she went to the play and I sold her a book.

The guy who was dominating the speaker was someone I knew (and he is autistically sweet and unaware when someone wants out of a conversation) and for some reason I just start gathering my stuff and I said something like Lets go and save her. She said, after looking over, "I came with him"

I said something nice about him and said that I just wanted to talk tot he woman so I was going to have to interrupt them. I dont think she was upset or mad or anything it was just awkward. I cant belive the randomness of that. I cant belive I even let that slip out of my mouth. Its like...internal dialogue please.

Other than that, my hair looked so cute tonight. I rode up there with my hair still in hot rollers so the set was fab. really curly.

I got to sit with one of my fav people and hear his thoughts on it.

Halloween was a good one this year. We had more kiddos last year, but this year we had 46, so not bad not bad.

Last night we watched Haunting in Connecticut and it was so scary. Even Mike yelled out loud once and he never gets scared. It was fun.

We palled around with our neighbor. Now I have to stop eating cany.

was lost in thought today and ran out of gas. It took me about 30 min to walk to a gas station and lug back. Then the gas container I bought spout was to short and wouldnt work. I had pulled into a trailor park and went trailor to trailoer till I found someone with a gas can to use thier spout. All tole the whole debacle only took about 45 min. I stil made it mikey's costume bash.

Today wasnt in and of itself bad but I kind of woke up in a bad mood

I decided to watch a Dakota Fanning movie but turned it off after Ned from Ghost Whisperer raped Dakota Fanning and her father got struck by lightening while on his farmall trackter

I have a zit that is ruining my life.

My first class was perfect and sweet. My second class kind of got out of control and I had to give them a talking to. Actually 3 people used thier phones ion class I went off, like ina scary way. I was so mad I felt like I was going to bust my podium in half. Then someone ran the cross walk while I was going to my car and I took a swing at it with my purse.

Then the library is always fun and awesome but tomorrow I have to take something really valuable as a one of a kind to the printers so that makes me sober.

We watched ANTM and one of the girls got so burned. It made me think of when I had such a terrible burn I could smell my own burnt flesh. The only worse smell I have ever smelled was gangrene, what a nightmare to even think of.

Thankgoodness Mike knows what I like beucase he saved a movie to put on called Miss Pettigrew Lives ofr a day. It was just the right size for today.

ROn called me and said he had been sad after the play was over. I called an dharrased the trophy shop today. I could give it to him tomorrow.

Also M3 is having a costume party tomorrow night and I miss my lkittle nephew so much. cant wait to see him.

Last week was weird becuase I did not have a hundred and one things to juggle and do, but I almost miss the pace and excitiment of it all. The play was so much fun, now all the hype has died down and its just back to real life. Its funny that I have not been so so busy in years but at the same time I dont remember being so carefree and relaxed. I think not having an 8am class has been key. Unfortunantly I have one next sememster so it will be back to the rat race. Mike keeps telling me to not let something that is not here yet mess up my serenity today so that is what I am working on in that dept.

The other thing is I just miss Ron. He'd say "lets go get some vegetables". His influence got me back into salads and veggies and we had an awesome time while working on the play. He really helped me shake off some serious doldrums. I probably lost 10 pounds if not more. I just dont want to slip back into old unhealthy habits that contributed to my depressions. I think I am more confidant, self assured, and mature so mabe it will stick. I think everyone should have an applause box like Suzanne Sugarbaker in Designing Women. Remember that episode.

Well, I wanted to do something special for Ron becuase it would have been so easy for a lesser person to never mention me. I was certainly willing to help Ron and be someone nobody ever saw but he put my name in the program and took me along to hang out with Lee Meriwhether and told her he couldnt have done it with out me. He has enough personal glory within himself that he can give away spotlight and glory. He also has a keen sensivity for the underdog and does his best to stand up against injustice. He never ignores it or compromises with it, so I decided to give him an award.

Now he does not know about it. I had to take it back because it was so crookedly stuck on the wood. I paid 80 bucks for damn plaque to be on reclaimed piano wood and I wanted it done right!!! Its beautiful, the color of the wood is so rich. I made a scan of it before I took it back. I showed it to some ladies at the library and they said it was horribly crooked and I should take it back so I did.

I told them my boss took one look at it and made me bring it back. I hate making people redo things but this was so crooked I cant belive they would have given it to me like that. WTF...Its beautiful though. I got the border from the 1932 Bradleyean Yearbook, one of the ones we used in the play. Its almost embarrassingly sentimental and over the top so I know he will love it. I used a few lines from the play so he will recognize that and I think it will have a lot of meaning for him.

I thought it fitting to end with lyrics from the finale song becuase happiness does tiptoe in. Sometimes you dont even know you are developing some skillz for happiness making until you are busy and you come out on the other side. Its hard to get out of a rut and I am not sure I would have gotten out this one as soon as I did if he had not come into my life.

It really is an unappreciated and unrecognized trait when someone radiates something that makes people around them hate themselves less. Mike can drive away clouds like that, so can my friend Greg and with as much flair as Ron. Well, all my inner circle can do that for me. Maybe I will get you all applause boxes for christmas.






The boy in the photo is the woman's great nephew that I have been writing about. I almost photoshopped out the kid but decided that it would be like someone photoshopping out future M3's son, so I left him in.

--my students did better on this test. I can tell they studied. that makes me happy.

-- so many of them are sick with the flu I am constantly disenfecting my hands and getting lots of sleep and eating veggies. I cannot get sick and miss seeing Leonard Cohen. I told myself before the play that I could not get sick. SO now I am hoping and prayinbg that to thawart it for a little longer although Mike is due for a check up at the doctor and thats like walking into the frying pan. I am probably just being paranoid and if I keep worrying I might make myself sick so I am just going to keep on strong and upbeat like I have been this past month.

--the eastern star thing went well tonight but the Scottish Rite have raised the rent and they were talking about moving meeting rooms. I think that it woukd be a betrayal and if they go through with it they on the night of the vote they are going to have to hear from me and I will come out against it and it will be surprising and well orated. I mean a full on speach that will reign down fire. And its going to start like "If I do not speak out and state my feelings on this, which I rarely do, I will be betraying my conscience. I may not be able to spell for shit but I am a powerful orator when its called for.

now I need to go bed.

I am somewhat always mindful of the simple pleasures of life, watching out for new ones and enjoying the favorite old identified ones, like the changing of leaves.

I was looking at my back yard thinking how pretty it was, though they are the same trees I have been seeing my whole life they give me the same amount of giddy joy when they start to change colors.

A new simple pleasure I have discovered is liquid fabric softener. It is a total alien beast to me. My mom never used it and Mike's skin is to sensitive for it, but everytime we go to visit his daughter someone in her apt. complex is always doing laundry and the smell literally makes me swirl around with delight. I find myself trying to sniff it out and always wondering what it was. Mike told me it was probably liquid fabric softener so now that we have this new washer I decided to get some. It even has a setting just for it.


Growing up my clothes often had a line dried smell to it that was really very nice but the clothes and towels would be crunchy. I have been revelling in the smell of downy since yesterday. I even washed my pillow case in it. Mike will probably break out in a rash just from snuggling with me I have so much fabric softenr in my clothes but it smells divine.

As I was standing looking out the window I started thinking about it, mixed with excitment over a new top and the changing leaves I started going through my mental feel good list and a phrase and music from a movie came to. This music is downy happy music, and the phrase that made me hear it, cheesy as it is, "the feel of my lovers kiss" or something to that effect made me want to hear. SO I sought it out, though the music was clear in my minds eye, it was till nice to 'hear" it.

Its in Veronicas coffesion the toward the beginning. I didnt watch the whole clip, just wanted to hear that short phrase. I guess this is all susangaliues confession. Last night me and Mike went to a dinner party. I think we did pretty good. Mike is awlays like a loaded cannon, you never know what reaction sertain topics will get but we sat at a table with 3 of my former profs from UAH and all had verying viewpoints and enjoyed lively debate with real disenting viewpoints and truly enjoyed some light debate. I think I held my own and never betrayed my self in my ageold attenpt to not feel like the dumbest one at the table, by agreeing just becuase I didnt want anyone to know my real opinion. SO I amn looking forward to testing my kids today and seeing all the things they have learned. It is exciting to see something in a person that was not there before your class even if it is the slightest thing. I love my litle calhoun slackers and I stand by my teaching methods.

I confess I chose a different academic path, but I do not repent my choices. Calhoun needs to exist and everybody deserves the right of an education even if it is at two year college.(oh yeah, and that beautiful music is totally playing in the background)

and random picture, its been a while since I did a picture post, I am to tired to caption them though




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this morning I went swimming. It was really nice.

As I was walking to my car I couldn't help but notice the extraordinarly vivd were the colors of the sunrise. It was really beautiful, enough so that I passed a stranger in the lot and said "the sunrise is particularly beautiful this morning."

The looked around and said "I dont see the sun yet", ok dude way to be literal since the sun had not come up over the mountains. I decided to pity him and go on my marry way.

I decided to watch one of my shows this morning when I got home and Mike called me. One of the first things he had to say was " did you happen to notice how beautiful the sunrise was?"

I told him about the parking lot guy and he said "Well, I am glad we have our rose colored glasses on."

so far I only have one student that I have had to consistently get on to. I was dreading this past tues becuase I was just to tired to exert my will over this girl and really didnt want to even see her. I was blessed when she didnt show up to class.
I feel more back to myself today and ready to face it.

THis is a pic that one of my students sent to me. I told her I was going to show it off to everyone I knew so I dont feel bad about putting up on here.

Tonight I made another 350 bucks on the book sale. Well, I really sold them at the matenee and the evening show..

Gerald and Trina sat with me at the 2 oclock one and mumsey and Tanay came to the evening show. I dont think I could have done allthis wihoiut my people. Speaking of, I walked intot he show matenee and my Rainbow assembly was thewre. turns out that Le Meriwhether was a rainb ow. I should have known seeing her walk across the stage eloquently. She gve the gitls tickets. I gave her a book today and signed it ending with "In Rainbow Love and Service"

Between the shows I didnt have enough time to go home and come back so dallied around until Ron said he had a flat so I offered hima ride. Then once I got him to his house I wormed myself in and he heated us up some soup.

It was so nice to have him to myself for a while. We shared profound thoughts and I just listened to him and watched how elegant he was.

After the show Ron wanted to eat with some of the cast so we went. I felt like a fly or an anthropologist watching.