I just found a poem Ryan wrote to me on the 18 th about his addictions and wanting to start over but he never sent it to me. I wish he had just explained. I would have forgiven anything. Surely he must have known that.
The name of it was healing scars. Why couldnt he have just told me. Chased me down and spilled all. He knew my heart! Could additions have really lied to him that much.
Nothing is ever going to be ok again.